The final countdown

Well ladies and gents, it officially begins! It is in exactly 90 days today I will be boarding a plane for my most excellent adventure. Yes, that's right, my plane to Australia! I cannot describe to you all the emotions that are going on in my head right now. I've never been more excited/nervous/scared/excited/anxious/excited (did I already say that?) for something in my entire life of being. Mostly I'm excited (as if you didn't already get that) for my childhood dream to be lived out. I have seriously been wanting to go to Australia ever since I was the wee age of 7. My whole world is about to be turned upside down- literally. I am going to create countless memories and experience so much that I don't even know if I am ready for or not. I am a little scared and nervous because I have never actually traveled on my own and it is a big jump for me. 6 whole months in a completely different and far away country. I am excited to just leave my life behind and soak up the chill-ness that lies in Australia. Also, I get to see all my wonderful friends for whom I've greatly missed over these past couple of years. But with that said, I am going to miss my ones back home. I have to put on hold any forming relationships and leave behind my close friends and family. But not too big of sad pants are being worn because like I said, this is my childhood dream. An adventure of a lifetime. An adventure that is going to challenge my people skills and challenge my strength and independence. An adventure that will greatly reward me. An adventure of making new friends, experiences and memories. An adventure that will most of all truly be amazing as.

For no one has sacrificed and loved me this way...

I can't think of a better way to open this post than with the word sorry. Sorry. I lost all meaning behind this blog and all the feeling it gave me. I am in the middle of doing some planning ahead for studying (okay it is procrastination) and I figured I would check out my blog just to read what I did in the past year. As I started reading all I could think of was Cassia you are so stupid! Why did you ever stop writing? Emotions flooded over me as I reminisced about all the amazing as times I had. I immediately stopped and had to write. I thought of no better thing to talk about than God. He has been playing such a huge role in my life lately. As I re-read my post "Our God", I was immediately struck by the thought God you are AMAZING! I can't begin to describe to you how amazing He is. But I can tell you a story. Remember when I told you I was so fortunate to witness a miracle? Well, living in Nanaimo I've been having a hard time finding/going to church because-get this- I felt like I was cheating on my church. Silly, I know. But recently I was able to get over this little petty problem and actually drag my bum to Oceanside. A church out of Nanaimo Christian School. It was alright. I didn't feel what I wanted to feel though. I didn't feel like I was really there. Anyways the pastor was speaking about faith and relating to Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see" He was saying how a lot of us haven't witnessed a miracle but yet are so strong in our beliefs because of the faith that drives us. We don't need a miracle to believe that God is there and listening, we just have faith. Sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. All I could think of in that moment was how I was so incredibly fortunate to actually witness a miracle and experience the saving grace our God provides. As soon as that thought entered my mind a pool of thoughts just raced through. God has been working so much in my life and it is so clear to see. With my baptism, camp, God moments and so on. I've been struggling with a few things since coming back to school and I was so frustrated because I was praying about them and not getting anything back from God. I was frustrated because all I wanted was to follow the path God has for me and I couldn't do that without any sign from him or reassurance of what to do. I didn't know how He could expect me to do the things He wanted if I wasn't getting anything from Him. But,GOD IS GOOD! He showed me that all I had to do was trust. Trust in Him. He provides. He is there for me. Since then, I've had amazing God experiences and God moments and just complete and full moments of praise for Him. So much realization that He indeed does provide. I am SO excited for this weekend because I get to go back to camp where I can once again experience a full and filled and pure amazing presence of God. He gets me through. He saves. Our God, ladies and gentlemen, is amazing as.